Thread:TheDarkness909/@comment-8855219-20140324220935/@comment-1687995-20140403203017

Alright... dare I say it, dare I even leak one bit of this, but here's a... not-so-sweet, not-so-vicious way of saying this, but...

You win.

You win a battle that was never started, a battle that was selfish in its own right, but I do not claim responsibility for ticking you off.

When I made that joke about Rememberance Day, I was a bit "out-of-control" because I didn't appreciate waiting. We had this assembly, and I just... well, it felt like it went on forever. The fact that I have to experience that every year is not really the best thing ever. And I didn't really understand why you were so against my joke at first, until... the relative had been mentioned.

One of the things I tried to explain in that Tumblr RSS page... was that I only knew afterwards, so I didn't know beforehand. That means you didn't tell me that someone you loved, someone you actually really cared about...... passed.

And I know. People die. But it was on my behalf that I shouldn't have told you to "get over it". I was upset that you didn't appreciate the joke, and well... I got angrier. That's what led to the page.

I also had issues in school at that time, so you already know how stressful it is... I mean, I was never in your position. You're running a group that you have to support for multiple places (platforms) and you also need to become a normal, functioning member of society by getting educated at school. Making an efficient balance between your internet life and your progress in school is... from what I've learned, tough. You could tell by my blog posts on the wiki that I was a bit stressed when Michael took Alyssa. I just wanted something to go my way, and in the end, it didn't.

I always wanted things to go my way, but then you learn (on this wiki) that you're not in control. You're not the administrator, you're not the one who can control what others do. All you can do is edit normal pages, and put categories in articles. Of course, you can mark pages for deletion, and rename them. But... you can't block users unless you tell the administrators, who (surely enough) don't trust you, and...

...you start to feel completely isolated. When I quit, I just did it because I didn't want to have you and S.P. gang up on me because it was unfair. And, it was all just because of confusion.

So, what should be just another insult reply is an admittance. Bill, I didn't know. Okay? I didn't know. You should've told me that you didn't appreciate anything mocking that holiday and I would've stayed away from it.

But... don't ever think that me going back to T-Games will ever be a good idea.

Yes, T-Games had one of the finest impacts on me. It was a memorable time of my life to participate with you, getting to learn new things, and actually being creative. Skyton had a base model, but I never returned to LBP. So by the time I quit, I could no longer continue it. S.P. may be releasing it for hate, and to show that I "didn't care about it", but really... LBP was becoming addictive, and I actually ended up having a total of an 8+ month absence from my school just because of it. I didn't want to play it, because I needed to get the proper education for my future life. If I could, I would return to the game. Just to say "thank you." But in the end, I can't.

This is no way of saying "I'm sorry for leaving T-Games, I want to come back." And I'm not saying this just to give you your browser back. Yes, you can have it. Trixel can change it at-will, I just don't agree with their name. I'm not saying U-Music should have my content restored. Look... Robot Revitalize... it was my best at the time, but I've gone further. And I still can. 99% of people do like compliments. It boosts their esteem. But... there's too much sarcasm in my life to sense that.

For you to come on this wiki, it was like the past was catching up with me. And I never thought you'd come on here. Honestly, I thought the first thing you'd say was "Oh boy, so you think you're so great on this wiki, too?"

It's not even the official wiki. But the real wiki needs a major update.

So what made me change my mind? What made me come out this way?

It's because not only is there a lot of sarcasm in my life, but... there's also a lot of guilt. Even if I could fight back in your "attempt to expand here", people wouldn't look at me the same. I wouldn't be the good guy, I'd be worse. I know who I am, I shouldn't be making this harder for myself.

You're not getting an apology for me quitting. I feel I've made the right decision, and my performance in school is getting better as a result. I say this, and this only: You're getting an apology for the wrong place, and the damn well wrong time.

So, I shouldn't be saying "f--- you." I should really be saying "thank you." Because really, you changed me. You, more than anyone else, have changed a person, across the freaking world, to believe things, to do different things. If I hadn't met you, T-Games would not have as much complexity. Sure, some steps you could've done alone, but the Wiki, and the logos, and the music... couldn't have existed if I wasn't there.

So, pardon me, I was a bit harsh to a guest on this wiki. Allow me to say...

*Thank you for everything. :D

I feel happier now. I don't think a re-energized conflict was what we needed.